pictures taken by lutfil shaqeel and me.

hi guys! sorry for not blogging for a very very long time:<


school has took a lot of my time therefore, i cant online tht much ahahaha.
anyways, see those pics above? yesterday my class had social etiquette lesson and we had it at eatzi restaurant,a semi-formal restaurant.

the food there was delicious however we were suffocated and frustrated as we had to eat with the right etiquette and well you know, handling of the cutlery is very troublesome.
but overall i had fun there as a class :>

few days ago i went to maulud nabi at woodlands stadium, and i can say that it is an eye opening evnts and a beneficial one too
:> we shld all not forget abt our dearly prophet Muhammad p.b.u.h, remember his love for us, even before he met us. remember the sacrificies he did for us. :> we shld all love prophet muhammad for he is indeed an influential and noble man:> whom is loved by Allah , very much :>

i hope you guys would be given blessings from Allah and take care :>
jazakAllah Khair.

Nick Vujicic

choices. and omg.
this video, this is the answers.
if he, without arms and legs, can be a motivational speaker and go on with life, why cant we? :(

hard times

i simply had to blog and express what i've been going through.

currently im not at my best state. There's a lot of things bothering me and i really need peace :<
so im having issues with my friend. and honestly, i know it may seems childish. but its bothering me. because this problem will affect my reputation.
you see,
being a human being, we all have bad intentions and we do sometimes dislike people. but i will try my best not to fill myself with hate. because hate brings jealousy. jealousy is a poison which corrupts our mind, and eventually it spoils our life. i understand that soomehow this feelings are natural and we can't avoid it. but we can control it.

maybe it's my fault that the issue started, but for the love of God, i have no intention of hurting people. Oh God, only you know what im feeling and my true intentions.
To add to the fire, my mathematics is really giving me problems, especially differentiation. it makes me demotivated seeing my current state and i know how much i really wanna do well for O'levels.
what am i going to do? I've decided.



Life, takes you to this roller coaster ride. or even a car trip. it would bring you to a happy place, and suddenly a catastrophic state. However, the car have to go on. it cant just break and stop there doing nothing right? So im gonna move on with life. i dont know if the situation will ever get better, or if my friendship with my friend would heal again but what i do know is Allah will always be here, with me, and give me the support. Somehow His guidance and test means something. i know, every test of faith he puts me into have its valuable lesson. and i should be grateful, so grateful that he looks after me. and not ignoring me. Subahanallah, life is not perfect without God. and i can't prostrate enough and thank Allah for his blessings.

so for you guys who are going through a rough time like me, dont fred. We are never alone. Killing yourself wont help, it would make things much worse and God wont like people who ends his/her life. remember. when ever God sent us a test , He have faith in us, that we can go through this tough times. and i know i can, and will. InsyaAllah.


So tomorrow, i will go to school, being normal. and whatever happens, im gonna be me, im gonna stay positive, because by being like this, and having God by My side, will i be able to live life strongly and positively.

Till then,
Peace be upon everyone

school and maths = deprived of breaks.

HAHA do you do that?

Yay! its the first day if February today! :> how time flies and its alr the second month of schooling :> means that days to o's are closer ;o

hmm, besides that i 've been busy, especially with AMATHS. differentiation is being very difficult and im a slow learner.
its okay though cause InsyaAllah i will be able to make it. :>



AHAAHAH i mean that is what i call thinking out of the box :>
hmm, i've been starting Ngaji classes or religious recital classes. and Alhamdulillah :> i am so delighted that finally, i couls learn how to recite the Quran properly! :> Thanks Mom for sacrificing your time:>
School has been okay, though im frequently sad all the time. Sometimes idont know why, but there is something deep inside that bothers me. which i dont know what. somtimes i feel i disappoint people, sometimes i feel like my hardwork aint enough etc. however, my friends are there to make me a smiley person back. maybe its PMS maybe not:>

besides tht things that makes me angry:

• my school recess tht only gave us 20 mins of break
• due to the new tt, PE is now only 1hr
• the fast pace in maths lesson
• the fact that im a slow catcher ;p

I BELIEVE that graduating students need LONGER BREAKS as we're studying more, and trust me 20 mins is NEVER enough for us to eat and queue especially when you're sharing recess time with 3 LEVELS!! haish. this is insane because if they want us to do well, we need to have sufficient breaks right? how can your mind absorb so much info in a day!?! Astaugfirallah hala'zim.

so i wont be blogging everyday and i will try my best to make my blog alive. ahaha my tagboard is dead so anyone, do comment. :>
oh well, i have standard deviation test tml, and InsyaAllah i'll be able to pass and do better. :> All the best to those who're having tests too! :>
okay, till then, stay safe :>

zee

YOU'RE LUCKY

i just have a lot alot of things to say about this vid

i am so foolish and self-centered. im was upset because i felt lonely, when i do have people around me. I felt left out, but the fact is, people is around me, and helping me. im just blind.

but this girl, Janet. she have every reason to cry.
She is suffering from a deadly sickness, and have months to live. Months. its not long. like how exams will come fast. She is scared, of what she will leave behind. the fact that she is still young and have so much to achieve and how she really wants to be a teacher really makes me sad.

We dont realise how fortunate we are, being okay, healthy. Other people have problems. Bigger problems. and we're here hating life just because it doesn't satisfy. Forget it, this world was not meant to satisfy us. We aren't suppose to love this world because this is not our home. Be appreciative. Thank God for everything, every opportunity, every chance you're given. never take life for granted. Dont have that mindset that everything revolves around you and you're the only one who have the major problems. Janet have bigger problems. Children in Africa have bigger problems. Yet, what are we even doing? Are we helping them? Am i doing enough?

Love everything, before its too late. Age is just a number, Death waits for no one. without you knowing, Angel of Death will come visiting and take away your soul.

big thanks to people esp Dafinah for being concern and Luqman for being my listening ear today :> God bless you guys
friends like you guys are the reason why im still being myself and being strong :)
Lutfil, Remember, you have the power to be happy. its not that hard. Remember you do have people around you still we're never alone. Being worried is a waste of time. dont worry about this world cause its not so important. we wont live long here.

victor kim

he's very insprational and an awesome dancer / singer :)
i really wanna buy his products.

zee.

being who you are.



truthfully, sometimes i copy others style.

idk if im a follower, but sometimes i'm not original to myself. and that makes me disappointed because it makes me less unique.
why do i do it?
maybe because i feel left out and the odd one out. i'm sure you guys would think that it's so stupid.
but, i just dont know why i can't be myself sometimes.

i dont even know who i am sometimes.

my name is Siti Zaleha and im only 15 for now. i live in Singapore, which i think is a very safe country. my mind is quite different from others, and im self-conscious, in terms of religion. im a thinker and a dreamer. i have doubts in love because i think infatuation is wrong. if you cant control your temptations, you'll start doing sinful things. i hang out with mostly guys because i cant get along well with girls. maybe people might call me a flirt or any terms but i think guys are trustable compare to girls. i may be a bit tom-boyish at times, but i do act like a girl, like obviously ;p

i have great friends that i look up to. i think they're awesome and cool. they have their own styles and uniqueness.

im very silly and clumsy especially when im alone. i hate ordering food because im shy and afraid that i'll make a fool of myself. i love to study and my dream is to go to heaven, InsyaAllah. i love to joke around and i fin myself quite funny.

i like helping people and i can really make an impact in their life, however, i can't do it in person because it would be awkward. i want people to know that, God is always there with them and worrying is a waste of time. help will always come to you when you need it. i think we all need to be patient and thank God that things are'nt that complicated that it can be.
im sad that people nowdays are taking advantage in almost everything.