hard times

i simply had to blog and express what i've been going through.

currently im not at my best state. There's a lot of things bothering me and i really need peace :<
so im having issues with my friend. and honestly, i know it may seems childish. but its bothering me. because this problem will affect my reputation.
you see,
being a human being, we all have bad intentions and we do sometimes dislike people. but i will try my best not to fill myself with hate. because hate brings jealousy. jealousy is a poison which corrupts our mind, and eventually it spoils our life. i understand that soomehow this feelings are natural and we can't avoid it. but we can control it.

maybe it's my fault that the issue started, but for the love of God, i have no intention of hurting people. Oh God, only you know what im feeling and my true intentions.
To add to the fire, my mathematics is really giving me problems, especially differentiation. it makes me demotivated seeing my current state and i know how much i really wanna do well for O'levels.
what am i going to do? I've decided.



Life, takes you to this roller coaster ride. or even a car trip. it would bring you to a happy place, and suddenly a catastrophic state. However, the car have to go on. it cant just break and stop there doing nothing right? So im gonna move on with life. i dont know if the situation will ever get better, or if my friendship with my friend would heal again but what i do know is Allah will always be here, with me, and give me the support. Somehow His guidance and test means something. i know, every test of faith he puts me into have its valuable lesson. and i should be grateful, so grateful that he looks after me. and not ignoring me. Subahanallah, life is not perfect without God. and i can't prostrate enough and thank Allah for his blessings.

so for you guys who are going through a rough time like me, dont fred. We are never alone. Killing yourself wont help, it would make things much worse and God wont like people who ends his/her life. remember. when ever God sent us a test , He have faith in us, that we can go through this tough times. and i know i can, and will. InsyaAllah.


So tomorrow, i will go to school, being normal. and whatever happens, im gonna be me, im gonna stay positive, because by being like this, and having God by My side, will i be able to live life strongly and positively.

Till then,
Peace be upon everyone