pictures taken by lutfil shaqeel and me.

hi guys! sorry for not blogging for a very very long time:<


school has took a lot of my time therefore, i cant online tht much ahahaha.
anyways, see those pics above? yesterday my class had social etiquette lesson and we had it at eatzi restaurant,a semi-formal restaurant.

the food there was delicious however we were suffocated and frustrated as we had to eat with the right etiquette and well you know, handling of the cutlery is very troublesome.
but overall i had fun there as a class :>

few days ago i went to maulud nabi at woodlands stadium, and i can say that it is an eye opening evnts and a beneficial one too
:> we shld all not forget abt our dearly prophet Muhammad p.b.u.h, remember his love for us, even before he met us. remember the sacrificies he did for us. :> we shld all love prophet muhammad for he is indeed an influential and noble man:> whom is loved by Allah , very much :>

i hope you guys would be given blessings from Allah and take care :>
jazakAllah Khair.

Nick Vujicic

choices. and omg.
this video, this is the answers.
if he, without arms and legs, can be a motivational speaker and go on with life, why cant we? :(

hard times

i simply had to blog and express what i've been going through.

currently im not at my best state. There's a lot of things bothering me and i really need peace :<
so im having issues with my friend. and honestly, i know it may seems childish. but its bothering me. because this problem will affect my reputation.
you see,
being a human being, we all have bad intentions and we do sometimes dislike people. but i will try my best not to fill myself with hate. because hate brings jealousy. jealousy is a poison which corrupts our mind, and eventually it spoils our life. i understand that soomehow this feelings are natural and we can't avoid it. but we can control it.

maybe it's my fault that the issue started, but for the love of God, i have no intention of hurting people. Oh God, only you know what im feeling and my true intentions.
To add to the fire, my mathematics is really giving me problems, especially differentiation. it makes me demotivated seeing my current state and i know how much i really wanna do well for O'levels.
what am i going to do? I've decided.



Life, takes you to this roller coaster ride. or even a car trip. it would bring you to a happy place, and suddenly a catastrophic state. However, the car have to go on. it cant just break and stop there doing nothing right? So im gonna move on with life. i dont know if the situation will ever get better, or if my friendship with my friend would heal again but what i do know is Allah will always be here, with me, and give me the support. Somehow His guidance and test means something. i know, every test of faith he puts me into have its valuable lesson. and i should be grateful, so grateful that he looks after me. and not ignoring me. Subahanallah, life is not perfect without God. and i can't prostrate enough and thank Allah for his blessings.

so for you guys who are going through a rough time like me, dont fred. We are never alone. Killing yourself wont help, it would make things much worse and God wont like people who ends his/her life. remember. when ever God sent us a test , He have faith in us, that we can go through this tough times. and i know i can, and will. InsyaAllah.


So tomorrow, i will go to school, being normal. and whatever happens, im gonna be me, im gonna stay positive, because by being like this, and having God by My side, will i be able to live life strongly and positively.

Till then,
Peace be upon everyone

school and maths = deprived of breaks.

HAHA do you do that?

Yay! its the first day if February today! :> how time flies and its alr the second month of schooling :> means that days to o's are closer ;o

hmm, besides that i 've been busy, especially with AMATHS. differentiation is being very difficult and im a slow learner.
its okay though cause InsyaAllah i will be able to make it. :>



AHAAHAH i mean that is what i call thinking out of the box :>
hmm, i've been starting Ngaji classes or religious recital classes. and Alhamdulillah :> i am so delighted that finally, i couls learn how to recite the Quran properly! :> Thanks Mom for sacrificing your time:>
School has been okay, though im frequently sad all the time. Sometimes idont know why, but there is something deep inside that bothers me. which i dont know what. somtimes i feel i disappoint people, sometimes i feel like my hardwork aint enough etc. however, my friends are there to make me a smiley person back. maybe its PMS maybe not:>

besides tht things that makes me angry:

• my school recess tht only gave us 20 mins of break
• due to the new tt, PE is now only 1hr
• the fast pace in maths lesson
• the fact that im a slow catcher ;p

I BELIEVE that graduating students need LONGER BREAKS as we're studying more, and trust me 20 mins is NEVER enough for us to eat and queue especially when you're sharing recess time with 3 LEVELS!! haish. this is insane because if they want us to do well, we need to have sufficient breaks right? how can your mind absorb so much info in a day!?! Astaugfirallah hala'zim.

so i wont be blogging everyday and i will try my best to make my blog alive. ahaha my tagboard is dead so anyone, do comment. :>
oh well, i have standard deviation test tml, and InsyaAllah i'll be able to pass and do better. :> All the best to those who're having tests too! :>
okay, till then, stay safe :>

zee

YOU'RE LUCKY

i just have a lot alot of things to say about this vid

i am so foolish and self-centered. im was upset because i felt lonely, when i do have people around me. I felt left out, but the fact is, people is around me, and helping me. im just blind.

but this girl, Janet. she have every reason to cry.
She is suffering from a deadly sickness, and have months to live. Months. its not long. like how exams will come fast. She is scared, of what she will leave behind. the fact that she is still young and have so much to achieve and how she really wants to be a teacher really makes me sad.

We dont realise how fortunate we are, being okay, healthy. Other people have problems. Bigger problems. and we're here hating life just because it doesn't satisfy. Forget it, this world was not meant to satisfy us. We aren't suppose to love this world because this is not our home. Be appreciative. Thank God for everything, every opportunity, every chance you're given. never take life for granted. Dont have that mindset that everything revolves around you and you're the only one who have the major problems. Janet have bigger problems. Children in Africa have bigger problems. Yet, what are we even doing? Are we helping them? Am i doing enough?

Love everything, before its too late. Age is just a number, Death waits for no one. without you knowing, Angel of Death will come visiting and take away your soul.

big thanks to people esp Dafinah for being concern and Luqman for being my listening ear today :> God bless you guys
friends like you guys are the reason why im still being myself and being strong :)
Lutfil, Remember, you have the power to be happy. its not that hard. Remember you do have people around you still we're never alone. Being worried is a waste of time. dont worry about this world cause its not so important. we wont live long here.

victor kim

he's very insprational and an awesome dancer / singer :)
i really wanna buy his products.

zee.

being who you are.



truthfully, sometimes i copy others style.

idk if im a follower, but sometimes i'm not original to myself. and that makes me disappointed because it makes me less unique.
why do i do it?
maybe because i feel left out and the odd one out. i'm sure you guys would think that it's so stupid.
but, i just dont know why i can't be myself sometimes.

i dont even know who i am sometimes.

my name is Siti Zaleha and im only 15 for now. i live in Singapore, which i think is a very safe country. my mind is quite different from others, and im self-conscious, in terms of religion. im a thinker and a dreamer. i have doubts in love because i think infatuation is wrong. if you cant control your temptations, you'll start doing sinful things. i hang out with mostly guys because i cant get along well with girls. maybe people might call me a flirt or any terms but i think guys are trustable compare to girls. i may be a bit tom-boyish at times, but i do act like a girl, like obviously ;p

i have great friends that i look up to. i think they're awesome and cool. they have their own styles and uniqueness.

im very silly and clumsy especially when im alone. i hate ordering food because im shy and afraid that i'll make a fool of myself. i love to study and my dream is to go to heaven, InsyaAllah. i love to joke around and i fin myself quite funny.

i like helping people and i can really make an impact in their life, however, i can't do it in person because it would be awkward. i want people to know that, God is always there with them and worrying is a waste of time. help will always come to you when you need it. i think we all need to be patient and thank God that things are'nt that complicated that it can be.
im sad that people nowdays are taking advantage in almost everything.

In the name of Allah , the Entirely Merciful, the Especially Merciful.

[All] praise is [due] to Allah , Lord of the worlds. The Entirely Merciful, the Especially Merciful,
Sovereign of the Day of Recompense. It is You we worship and You we ask for help.
Guide us to the straight path - The path of those upon whom You have bestowed favor, not of those who have evoked [Your] anger or of those who are astray.

Surah AL-Fatihah. taken from Quran.com

pictures of nostalgic.

champion , but the best of us is our spirit :) 3E2 AND 4E2 2012 FOREVER.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kRiI-cxDBPw&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4qyrBRn1s3I

devils

peace be upon all of you.

basically, if you think that i dont sound like how i act in this blog, it is because i tend to share all my thoughts here. well, not all ;p

so today, we had our class cheer. it was the best ever, because my class won! :) we won the overall champ and the upper sec. category. it didnt matter much because we all had fun, and my class definately bond very fast. this year is my last year in school and this shall be one of the best experiences :) i will post the vid and pics, insyaAllah. the thing is, cheering comp.is not abt how you wanna impress or win others. the imp thing is you have fun, and bond as a class. ive been studying in ADSS for going four years, and i can tell you this, friendship is not earned, it is found. it is created. Friends are the ones who will make your school journey a lil bit smoother, and will not leave you alone :)

BESIDES tht.




fight, like no other. and rely on God.

every one will experience this, where your journey goes rough, and somehow you feel lonely, betrayed and all alone. you keep convincing yourself that you're alright but you know you're not. and the person whom you want them to help you is not there. suddenly all hope seems lost, and you feel helpless, fighting your emotions and self.
you just dont know what to do and you just want to go away from this aweful feeeling

you're never alone.

first, Remember that Allah will always be there for you. Allah never give you a test that you can go through. remember that help will be given to you, if you seek help from Him
secondly, your friends are there for you. dont worry, sometimes, you just dnt see it. sometimes you fail to see that someone, maybe someone unexpected , cares for you. but he/she just dnt know how to approach of help you. and maybe tht guilt follows him/her around.

dont worry. cause like my friend muhammad naeem says :
Worrying is the same thing as banging your head on a wall. It's meaningless - and only feels good after you stop.

dont worry about the world. im here worrying about my fate and where i have done enough to have a place in heaven. im here worrying that what if im not strong enough to fight the deceitment Dajjal will face us with. Oh Allah, help me and give me a peace of mind :(
Amin.

our aim, is the HereAfter.

laziinesssssss

hi.
its 6.06 am and im online

lately i have not studied much and it is really bothering me. i dont know why im so lazy :(

haissh.
so, people says that im a very happy-go-lucky girl, who gets a little retarded and some point of time. i agree to the max :)

but, im also dealing with problems myself
everyone have problems and everyone will experience problems. one must not forget that the worls doesn't just revlve on them and remmbr , if you think you had worse, others have even bigger probs than you.
you fought with your boyfriend everytime, and you get so stress about it. compare that to the people in africa who is dying almost everyday without sufficient food, and water and dying of diseases . now tell me, which is worse?

God gave to a test of hope so to see how strong and faithful you are to him. and you must remember, no matter how much your self-esteeem dropped, you WILL get through the day and the problems you faced. God gave you a test, that he knows tht you can overcome. Hold on to what you believe, and never give up, because insyaAllah, he will ease your soul, one day.

so i really have to get going fr sch, and haish my laziness is really pissing me off.
Assalamualaikum.

Days ago

today i was demotivated by my art again.
:(



hi everyone. today i was very demotivated and down. its about my art. you see im not really as good as my sister in art and she told me that i have a chance of failing if i dont buck up. and when she told me that i was already feeling down so i couldn't stand it. every part of my body was angry and frustrated and stress so i broke down. but the reason why i did so is because instead of supporting me, they demotivated me further.

i know sometimes demotivation is a motivation after all, but this is different. During that time, i needed support and comfort, but i didnt get any. so i went out to my corridor and sat on the staircase and looked at the sky. i knew that Allah is giving me a test on my anger and determination so i sat down and just stare at the sky and pray. As i was watching the sky, there were two kites that was swaying and flying up high. the kite rose higher and higher until there was one point where the wind stopped and it starts to fleww down back. and then the wind picked up again and it started to rose higher.

that was it!

sometimes, our determination is like the kite. first, we feel confident and we dream of achieving and we start to work hard for it. but during the process, sometimes we get demotivated and we fall, just like the kite. sometimes no one is around us, like how the wind stopped. but then all we actually need is ourselves to dust ourselves off and never ever give up. that's the reason why the wind suddenly picked up and the kite start to rise again, higher.

Everyday, a lessson is learnt, and i Thank Allah for giving me this valueable lesson. i dont believe in luck of coincidence. every thing happens for a reason, and i know that Allah has given me the hope of not giving up :> Alhamdulillah :)

JazakAllah Khair.

Stress?

goodevening :)

the pressure is on! i had just received my art question paper yesterday. i think i can die sooner. ahhaha, im just kidding. im afraid tht i cnt cope with the stress however InsyaAllah, God's will, i can make it and get at least a 14 for my o's.

so lately i have like alot of meetings for SC's. :< sometimes i get frustrated because the meeting is llong and it takes up time, but its my responsibility so, i might as well just stay committed.

anyways, have u guise felt like this before?

AHAHHA I have, a lot of times :)However, nowadays i feel less lonely.i mean , everyone feels lonely sometime.its a normal Human feeling, but if we're able to see the green grass and the sunny side, you'll realise tht you're never alone. sometimes, the people whom care abt you is just right beside or in frnt of you :) and importantly, God is alwys there for you :)

From the Noble Quran itself:

"And whether you hide your word or publish it, He certainly has full knowledge of the secrets of all hearts." (67:13)

so forever alone guy, you dnt haveta do this ;p

BUT I LURP CATS... T.T

AHAAHAH! Oh well, time to start working hard for O's! not to mention! Alhamdullillah and praise to Allah that my sister for 17 for her o's. :)i wanna work harder and insyaAllah continue making my parents proud! :) also those who didnt make it, and are in despair, remember what i said.

Siti Zaleha Abdullah; Results does not determine that you're a failure and it does not mean that you end here. It means that you just have to work harder. Dust yourself off, because this is only a journey. Your disappointing results is an obstacle that you need to avoid and find a new route to your destination.

the only future and success you have to worry most, is the Afterlife, during Judgement Day.

so remember this two things!

and.

JazakAllah Khair and Assalamualaikum
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HI everyone

hey! Sorry for not updating mucho!

was very busy because this year im taking my major exams! :) hehehehe! which is the o levels and yes, school has alr started so forgive me if i dont blog much :)

so my melaka trip went okay, i uploaded pic on facebook alr :> heheeheh! and first day of school was awesomeee! :> i have yet to sit on the gallery. but things are looking great, Alhamdulillah. could not thank God enough for protecting and guiding me in this dunya.

A maths is a real killer cause im not good at it :( so i have to practise extra extra hard and this year most teachers are rushing through the content frm the text bk so i must be exra extra attentive. i have to study later bt i hope anyone can follow me if not i will be forever studying alone. LOL.

let me share a few pics frm melaka.













so i shall stop here for today, a lot of hmeworks to begin my day with :(
till then, assalamualaikum